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WHEN SOMEONE IMPORTANT DIES
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THE ONLY THING YOU LONG FOR
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HE HAS A LITTLE TIME TO GO WITH HIM.
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Imagine if he could
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to have an icon of culture speak to us
after his death.
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To shape his legacy
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and be heard for the last time
in his own words.
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The Charm of Eric Dane
and its's magnetism
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he was quickly established
as a TV star.
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He is known for his role
as Dr. Mark Sloan on Grey's Anatomy,
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the longest running medical series
in the history of television.
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Millions were enchanted
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when he appeared through the vapors
and he became McCaw.
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Oh, awkward.
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And then came the heartbreakingly raw,
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brutal and honest interpretation of
as Cal Jacobs in Euphoria.
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In his career Eric played the charmer,
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the athlete,
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the hero,
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and the bad guy.
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Always with her
seemingly effortless charm,
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authenticity and depth.
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The father's role for his two daughters,
Billy and Georgia,
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was the most important to him.
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Fight with vigor against ALS,
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of an incurable disease that paralyzed him
his body, but never his spirit.
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When he died,
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the world has lost a favorite protagonist
in the prime of his life.
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Before Eric Dane died
had a very meaningful discussion,
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at the end of which he had the opportunity
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to speak directly to the world
and to give his last message,
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knowing that what you will see
would be aired after his death,
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even if he needed to stay
in the cupboard for months or even years.
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These are the famous last words
by Eric Dane.
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For you especially. Passageway.
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Thanks.
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-You had to get me out somehow.
- Kind of, yes.
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-And carrying you would be an exaggeration.
- It would be.
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Exactly.
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- I'll put the brakes on.
- Fine.
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I put it on.
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-Well done.
- Fine. Now you are left with me.
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Sit down. You stayed with me
or me with you?
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Exactly.
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Do you still take it all with humor?
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And a lot in fact.
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There were times when you didn't
and came back, or…
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No, I've always seen this with humor.
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It has an interest
what's happening in my body
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The mechanisms of this disease
they are very interesting to me.
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When you focus on it and see
how it affects individual moments,
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that's when it can throw you off a bit.
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You know, I'm a complainer.
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I've always been the guy
who moaned and cried
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with the slightest.
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But my spirit is unexpectedly light
all this way.
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-Why does it happen, do you think?
- I have no idea.
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I have no reason to be happy
at any time,
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but i am
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You think he can experience this
someone who is not sick?
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They can understand it mentally.
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I don't know if they will experience it
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such as someone with a terminal illness.
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Correctly. And it has changed for you
what does it mean to live
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Every day.
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The evolution of this thing
she is truly…remarkable.
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I'm sure
that I sound good enough to you,
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but i feel
that I sound like a frog or…
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I sit here in awe and respect
for you and your strength,
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so you sound fine.
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Nice.
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So here we are
in this special room,
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this stage, where we are completely alone.
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There are no operators here.
They are in another room.
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They don't hear what we say.
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And the purpose of this show,
for those we are talking to here,
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is an opportunity to define themselves,
when everyone is trying to define them.
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An opportunity
for the world to truly know them.
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You and I were saying… We wanted it to be
our intention a little clearer.
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We want at the end of this interview
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your children to really know you
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in a way
that they would not be able to do so.
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When the world will see this...
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you will have died
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Does it bother you to think about it?
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On the one hand there is the issue of relief,
and on the other hand, every minute,
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however you feel
you will want to be present.
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Yes.
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It's weird
when you try to edit it.
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You and I are talking here now
and we are alive and well.
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And, at the same time,
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when will this exist
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if ever,
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I won't be here.
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How does it make you feel?
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It's kind of cool, I think.
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I mean?
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It's just…
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the idea that you continue to live,
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while you have already done it.
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I find it very interesting.
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To speak from the grave.
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To speak from the grave. Yes!
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-That's what you're doing now.
-Yes.
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- I'll read your resume.
-Ok.
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"Eric William Dane,
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you were born on November 9, 1972
in San Francisco, California.
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Your mother, Leah Cone, was a homemaker.
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Your father, William Dane Melvin,
air force sailor,
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became an architect and decorator.
He died when you were seven.
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You have a little brother, Sean.
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Are you married to Rebecca Gayhart?
model and actor, over 20 years".
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-You are still married to her.
- Yes, it is.
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"You have two daughters, Georgia and Billie.
Billie was named after your father."
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How did you decide that?
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My first child would be called Billy,
whether it was a boy or a girl.
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And it's a nice name.
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-Billy Dane.
- Yes.
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-Sounds like a gun.
- Yes, exactly.
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- Did Georgia get her name from someone?
- Rebecca really liked the name.
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"You participated in an impressive
TV series collection.
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Before the Bell Rings,
The Wonder Years,
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Roseanne, Married with Children,
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Death Silk, and The Witches,
among many others.
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In 2006, your role as Dr. Mark Sloan
on Grey's Anatomy
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caused such hysteria among fans,
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where the series was rewritten
to become a protagonist.
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You starred as Captain Tom Chandler
in The Last Ship,
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and you were awarded for your performance
as Cal Jacobs in HBO's Euphoria .
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After you were diagnosed with ALS,
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you fight tirelessly for expanded access
in healing, you collect resources,
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you give hope, dignity and strength
to the thousands affected by the disease.
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When the interview is shown,
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all this work will be completed,
and your body will rest."
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How does it feel to hear…
your resume like this?
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I feel that…
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I feel like there is
an interesting story in there somewhere.
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I'm proud of some of them.
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Basically, screw it, I'm dead.
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I'm proud of everything.
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All this brought me
where I am today.
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I always struggle
to hear about my father
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because his life was wasted.
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He was so talented.
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But he gained a lot of experience.
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life experiences,
personal, professional.
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When I really tried to be good
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and approached my art
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making some effort,
and focusing on her,
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I managed to do a very good job.
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Yes, definitely your work on Euphoria,
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for me, it's a masterpiece.
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Thanks. I worked hard for this.
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How did you connect personally?
with this character?
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There is something so… vulnerable.
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There is something exposed.
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Cal and I look a lot alike,
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because we know what it's like to live a double life.
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I have experienced this with my battle
with drugs and alcohol.
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I know what it's like to not fit in
my inside and my outside.
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Your father struggled with that too, don't you think?
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I think my father was struggling with life.
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And he never felt enough.
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So when you were seven,
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your father died
by suicide or accident.
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not specified,
but I don't know what you think.
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I don't think…
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that someone who is so drunk
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he would play with a gun in a bathroom
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alone for fun.
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So, I believe my father
at that moment he wanted to do it.
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I was thinking about everything
how lonely my father must have felt
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and how scared he would be.
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It breaks your heart.
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It moves you even now,
when you think of his loneliness?
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Yes.
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Do you feel connected to this loneliness?
Can you relate?
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You have felt it too
this level of loneliness?
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One hundred percent.
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I might have felt lonely
in a room full of people.
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Did you always feel that way as Eric?
That Eric felt lonely?
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Yes. I always felt
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detached
from my peers.
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And I've always struggled
to connect with people.
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And four months
after my father's death
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my grandmother, with whom I lived, died.
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-And you were very close.
-Very.
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It affected me almost the same,
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maybe even more than my father.
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He took great care of me.
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-How was your grandmother?
- She was wonderful.
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It was…
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It was a lot of fun.
I remember him playing a record.
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He played the same record every day.
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-Whom;
-By Engelbert Huberdink.
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-Aman.
-He was playing "Quando".
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Tell me quando, quando, quando
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She wore it all day and danced,
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and she was wonderful.
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Wow.
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And he was taking the newspaper
San Francisco Chronicle
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and was cutting the Dennis the Terrible comic
every day and put it in the fridge.
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Because she was convinced I was him.
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There was always something wrong with me.
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Call it a tease, call it a charm
or whatever you want to say,
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I think there was always something.
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-A workaholic.
-A workaholic.
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Yes, I believe so.
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-Everything; All your life?
-Yes.
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She was your dad's mom
or your mom's?
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My mom's mom.
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And your mom was less involved,
was she less of a mom?
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My mom was young.
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I think he did his best
with the tools at her disposal.
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You've told the story before
for the moment your mother told you
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that your dad killed himself.
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-You were seven.
-Yes.
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-He woke you up in the middle of the night.
-Yes.
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Before he told you, he kept repeating
"Promise me you'll be strong."
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-Correctly.
-At seven.
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It is…
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kinda stuck i think
the empathy part.
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And I think that's what's happening
because he is an expert in denial.
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What is he denying?
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I think he denies that
could affect me so much.
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-You?
-Yes.
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Also, I don't think he has accepted
that I have this disease.
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I think he still believes
how to find a miracle cure
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they made you time.
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And it is denial, not hope. He doesn't hope.
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It is denial. Listen…
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I don't blame her.
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If my child had ALS,
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I would be hooked on that idea.
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Yes. Are you hooked on your mother?
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Oh, no. I'm not opening Pandora's box.
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That's for another show.
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My mother always felt
that I was difficult…
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He refers to me as a difficult child.
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Either because he could see
partly my dad to me
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or just because I was difficult…
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-You were Dennis the Terrible.
-I was Dennis the Terrible.
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Even today, when I mention things,
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he tells me
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"Okay, you can't
just forget about it?"
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And, you know “It was so long ago.
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Why does it still affect you?"
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And I think the trauma is enough
at the cellular level of a human being.
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It's very hard to get rid of.
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Maybe impossible, basically.
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You can only
learn to manage it.
252
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I've been working on it for a long time.
253
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I ended up going to a treatment center
254
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on trauma and depression.
255
00:16:52,302 --> 00:16:54,096
Mainly because of your father?
256
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Only because of my father,
257
00:16:57,933 --> 00:17:00,728
because that's where the trauma came from.
258
00:17:01,228 --> 00:17:06,191
You remember the moment
that you found out about what happened
259
00:17:06,275 --> 00:17:09,653
to create the trauma
or disable something?
260
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To be deactivated.
261
00:17:12,448 --> 00:17:15,617
"Don't feel it. Be strong, you.
262
00:17:15,701 --> 00:17:17,870
Don't feel. Don't cry."
263
00:17:17,953 --> 00:17:19,747
I wanted to explode.
264
00:17:23,375 --> 00:17:25,127
But I had to swallow it.
265
00:17:26,545 --> 00:17:30,382
And your father couldn't
to do this for himself.
266
00:17:30,466 --> 00:17:31,467
Obviously…
267
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Nope.
268
00:17:34,595 --> 00:17:36,388
He didn't have that option.
269
00:17:41,560 --> 00:17:45,189
You felt his absence
at some times in your life?
270
00:17:45,272 --> 00:17:48,901
You were a very good athlete. You were playing polo.
271
00:17:48,984 --> 00:17:51,695
You have had many successes in your life.
272
00:17:51,779 --> 00:17:55,365
There were times when you said
"I wish daddy was here?"
273
00:17:58,911 --> 00:18:00,120
Many.
274
00:18:08,754 --> 00:18:10,005
Do you ever talk to him?
275
00:18:11,673 --> 00:18:13,759
I have written him letters.
276
00:18:15,052 --> 00:18:17,012
Not so much lately.
277
00:18:17,096 --> 00:18:19,932
I think I've come to terms with it.
278
00:18:21,308 --> 00:18:23,894
I still feel things
279
00:18:23,977 --> 00:18:28,899
but i think
that I have found peace about it.
280
00:18:28,982 --> 00:18:31,318
Is he talking to you? Do you hear his voice?
281
00:18:31,819 --> 00:18:32,945
No.
282
00:18:35,322 --> 00:18:39,660
I have a very controversial relationship
with the universe right now.
283
00:18:40,160 --> 00:18:41,495
I don't understand why.
284
00:18:44,039 --> 00:18:45,958
When you say that though,
285
00:18:46,583 --> 00:18:50,337
now that the world sees it,
you have rested
286
00:18:51,130 --> 00:18:52,506
Your body rested.
287
00:18:53,006 --> 00:18:57,177
So where are you?
What do you think about this?
288
00:18:57,261 --> 00:18:59,012
Do you want me to answer honestly?
289
00:18:59,096 --> 00:19:00,472
Well, yes…
290
00:19:00,556 --> 00:19:02,683
I believe that when the lights go out,
291
00:19:04,434 --> 00:19:05,394
it's over
292
00:19:07,437 --> 00:19:11,191
I don't believe there is…
293
00:19:12,359 --> 00:19:15,237
another place our souls go.
294
00:19:16,405 --> 00:19:19,241
I think people believe that
295
00:19:19,324 --> 00:19:22,619
because it comforts them greatly.
296
00:19:23,662 --> 00:19:24,621
But…
297
00:19:26,665 --> 00:19:31,795
i have accepted it
and I believe that when the lights go out,
298
00:19:32,296 --> 00:19:35,048
the old goes, the new comes.
299
00:19:36,008 --> 00:19:39,303
-Did you always believe that?
- I think, yes.
300
00:19:40,512 --> 00:19:44,683
I believe that when we sleep,
301
00:19:44,766 --> 00:19:47,603
or as we leave,
302
00:19:48,103 --> 00:19:50,355
once we're gone, we're gone.
303
00:19:51,064 --> 00:19:55,235
And we live in memories
of the people who will miss us.
304
00:19:58,447 --> 00:20:02,075
I imagine a lot of people miss you
at this moment.
305
00:20:02,701 --> 00:20:04,161
So, you're definitely still alive.
306
00:20:04,870 --> 00:20:05,871
Yes.
307
00:20:07,581 --> 00:20:12,169
If I asked Georgia and Billy
who was their dad
308
00:20:12,252 --> 00:20:13,962
what do you think they would say?
309
00:20:17,382 --> 00:20:20,844
I think they would initially say…
310
00:20:24,181 --> 00:20:26,516
that I am reactionary.
311
00:20:27,142 --> 00:20:30,979
-"My dad was a reactionary".
-What would they mean?
312
00:20:31,063 --> 00:20:33,523
Not necessarily as a negative,
313
00:20:33,607 --> 00:20:37,110
but some
from their core memories
314
00:20:37,986 --> 00:20:41,031
they had to do with me
to react to something
315
00:20:41,114 --> 00:20:43,033
Such as; Give an example.
316
00:20:44,201 --> 00:20:51,041
Traffic on the road
he always gives good reasons for doing so.
317
00:20:51,124 --> 00:20:52,125
Yes.
318
00:20:54,461 --> 00:20:58,298
And I think they would say
that I was a tough nut to crack.
319
00:20:59,299 --> 00:21:02,094
-In the sense of power?
-Mental strength.
320
00:21:02,177 --> 00:21:03,470
-Fortitude.
-Yes.
321
00:21:03,971 --> 00:21:05,764
They would say I was affectionate.
322
00:21:06,723 --> 00:21:12,187
That I was very sweet and compassionate
323
00:21:12,271 --> 00:21:14,147
and with understanding and…
324
00:21:16,692 --> 00:21:17,943
reliable.
325
00:21:19,111 --> 00:21:20,195
Good dad?
326
00:21:20,946 --> 00:21:22,447
I'm a good dad, yes.
327
00:21:22,531 --> 00:21:25,742
Do they know this? Do they believe it too?
328
00:21:25,826 --> 00:21:27,577
-Yes.
-Yes.
329
00:21:29,121 --> 00:21:33,583
We had wonderful trips,
we saw beautiful places.
330
00:21:33,667 --> 00:21:35,961
Do you remember a certain moment,
331
00:21:36,044 --> 00:21:38,630
anything that stands out from what you did together?
332
00:21:38,714 --> 00:21:41,091
We went to Europe one year.
333
00:21:43,969 --> 00:21:48,223
And once I…
334
00:21:48,890 --> 00:21:50,934
We were crossing the French countryside,
335
00:21:51,018 --> 00:21:55,272
with the kids in the back seat
of a crazy little car we rented.
336
00:21:56,273 --> 00:21:59,234
I was running like crazy too
in the french countryside.
337
00:22:00,444 --> 00:22:03,447
And what I was saying
I was saying it with a French accent.
338
00:22:05,365 --> 00:22:09,494
And for some reason,
for those 15 minutes,
339
00:22:09,995 --> 00:22:12,998
my french accent was perfect.
340
00:22:13,623 --> 00:22:15,834
I have no idea how this came about.
341
00:22:15,917 --> 00:22:18,086
You all burst out laughing.
342
00:22:18,170 --> 00:22:19,921
Yes.
343
00:22:20,922 --> 00:22:24,593
This is the best.
I love it when I do.
344
00:22:25,344 --> 00:22:28,972
-Make them laugh.
- And to laugh too.
345
00:22:29,473 --> 00:22:32,142
How would you describe your style as a dad?
346
00:22:32,225 --> 00:22:39,191
The most important thing
it's to be there for them, I think.
347
00:22:41,026 --> 00:22:44,237
I wasn't perfect at that.
348
00:22:45,447 --> 00:22:49,284
But I was always there for them when needed.
349
00:22:49,826 --> 00:22:53,663
So you regret it
for the time you were away from them?
350
00:22:54,247 --> 00:22:57,584
Yes. With their mother
we are not together anymore
351
00:22:58,877 --> 00:23:03,715
We stay close,
but we are not together
352
00:23:03,799 --> 00:23:07,677
So, you know,
353
00:23:07,761 --> 00:23:14,601
because of the distance
and because we live in separate houses,
354
00:23:15,143 --> 00:23:18,980
a lot of time is necessarily lost.
355
00:23:19,481 --> 00:23:21,608
But, you know,
356
00:23:21,691 --> 00:23:26,405
I made sure to be close to them
as much as possible
357
00:23:26,488 --> 00:23:28,949
and certainly whenever it matters.
358
00:23:29,032 --> 00:23:31,159
When does it count, that is?
359
00:23:32,577 --> 00:23:37,541
I've been to all of them
Billy's ballet performances.
360
00:23:38,333 --> 00:23:40,752
I've seen a lot of Nutcrackers.
361
00:23:40,836 --> 00:23:42,295
And, really,
362
00:23:42,379 --> 00:23:45,924
any two tracks in there are great.
363
00:23:46,425 --> 00:23:49,845
But, Christ, it doesn't end with anything.
364
00:23:50,679 --> 00:23:53,390
-I've seen it once.
- It lasts three hours.
365
00:23:54,724 --> 00:23:56,226
But I went every time.
366
00:23:59,020 --> 00:24:02,065
I'm going to the Georgia beach volleyball games.
367
00:24:02,149 --> 00:24:04,943
I am present in their lives,
368
00:24:05,444 --> 00:24:07,529
either I'm in front of them
369
00:24:08,363 --> 00:24:11,658
or thousands of kilometers away.
370
00:24:12,242 --> 00:24:13,118
Correctly.
371
00:24:13,952 --> 00:24:18,915
With Rebecca, whom you met
and you quickly fell in love
372
00:24:18,999 --> 00:24:23,170
how would you describe the essence
of this relationship and this love?
373
00:24:23,253 --> 00:24:26,590
We still love each other deeply.
374
00:24:27,174 --> 00:24:30,010
We just don't want to live together.
375
00:24:30,552 --> 00:24:34,431
But it exists
much love between us. I will never…
376
00:24:34,931 --> 00:24:39,019
Until anyone sees this,
377
00:24:39,102 --> 00:24:44,357
I will not have fallen in love with another woman
as deeply as I fell in love with Rebecca.
378
00:24:45,066 --> 00:24:47,652
She is the mother of my children.
379
00:24:48,153 --> 00:24:52,115
And the way it came about was so…
380
00:24:54,117 --> 00:24:58,163
spontaneous and situational.
381
00:24:58,246 --> 00:25:00,081
I met Rebecca,
382
00:25:00,624 --> 00:25:04,294
and I tell her friend
"I will marry this girl."
383
00:25:04,377 --> 00:25:05,629
How did you know that?
384
00:25:06,838 --> 00:25:08,757
I have no idea.
385
00:25:08,840 --> 00:25:12,385
I don't know how serious I meant it then.
386
00:25:12,469 --> 00:25:13,803
But I said it.
387
00:25:14,763 --> 00:25:19,434
And her friend said "It's out of the question.
She will not divorce her fiance.
388
00:25:19,518 --> 00:25:22,854
They will get married.
They've been together since they were 15."
389
00:25:23,480 --> 00:25:25,732
Four years later, we got married.
390
00:25:26,233 --> 00:25:31,821
I wanted to spend the rest of my life
where I was meant to be.
391
00:25:31,905 --> 00:25:34,658
Does he know you better than anyone?
Does he know you well?
392
00:25:34,741 --> 00:25:35,867
Certainly.
393
00:25:36,535 --> 00:25:40,539
What would she say if I asked her?
who was eric
394
00:25:40,622 --> 00:25:41,748
Wow.
395
00:25:43,083 --> 00:25:46,670
Look, he would say I was probably…
396
00:25:49,422 --> 00:25:50,924
a man who was…
397
00:25:53,093 --> 00:25:57,347
constantly vulnerable,
and who trembled at being vulnerable.
398
00:26:00,892 --> 00:26:02,811
I think he would say
399
00:26:04,521 --> 00:26:05,897
that I was funny.
400
00:26:09,234 --> 00:26:12,904
He would say I was charming
and I didn't know it.
401
00:26:13,863 --> 00:26:18,118
Don't you know you're charming
that you have that something…
402
00:26:18,201 --> 00:26:20,370
the glamor of the stars?
403
00:26:20,912 --> 00:26:23,248
I said I didn't have it.
404
00:26:24,291 --> 00:26:27,919
I don't know if you can have it
and know that you have it.
405
00:26:28,003 --> 00:26:30,422
Makes sense. Then it's not authentic, right?
406
00:26:30,505 --> 00:26:33,174
I think it wouldn't be authentic, yes.
407
00:26:33,258 --> 00:26:36,595
What happened between you two?
Why didn't the marriage work out?
408
00:26:37,846 --> 00:26:44,019
I think Rebecca was more willing
to play her part than I was.
409
00:26:44,102 --> 00:26:46,229
Why? Why weren't you?
410
00:26:47,564 --> 00:26:49,149
I don't have this…
411
00:26:52,527 --> 00:26:54,487
this gene that…
412
00:26:56,823 --> 00:27:01,369
it makes you keep fighting it
no matter what.
413
00:27:01,453 --> 00:27:04,706
For me, if there's a hole in the boat,
414
00:27:04,789 --> 00:27:07,042
don't try to close it.
415
00:27:07,542 --> 00:27:10,962
Fuck it and find another one.
416
00:27:13,089 --> 00:27:19,304
And that's how you dealt with serious problems
in the past, in your life in general?
417
00:27:19,387 --> 00:27:20,555
Yes.
418
00:27:22,140 --> 00:27:23,058
That's what I did.
419
00:27:24,392 --> 00:27:25,935
But now you can't.
420
00:27:26,936 --> 00:27:27,854
No.
421
00:27:28,355 --> 00:27:32,317
That changes
how do you see this strategy?
422
00:27:35,320 --> 00:27:36,154
Yes.
423
00:27:36,655 --> 00:27:41,451
I was always jealous of people
who fight and persevere.
424
00:27:42,952 --> 00:27:45,914
Rebecca fights and perseveres.
425
00:27:46,498 --> 00:27:49,084
But you also have tremendous perseverance. Maybe…
426
00:27:49,167 --> 00:27:52,671
I don't know. Is vigor the same thing?
427
00:27:52,754 --> 00:27:56,675
I don't know. What do you say?
How do you perceive the difference between them?
428
00:27:56,758 --> 00:28:03,098
I think one is
coping mechanism or act of defense,
429
00:28:03,181 --> 00:28:06,059
and the other is more…
430
00:28:07,435 --> 00:28:08,478
preventive.
431
00:28:09,312 --> 00:28:14,984
I think persistence
it's something you do to something.
432
00:28:15,819 --> 00:28:20,615
Yes, yes. But when you describe
that you live every moment to the end,
433
00:28:21,324 --> 00:28:25,286
and that you must be present,
it looks like persistence, not fortitude.
434
00:28:25,995 --> 00:28:29,499
-Mental fortitude is probably survival.
- Yes, you are right.
435
00:28:32,043 --> 00:28:34,129
Fortitude is survival.
436
00:28:35,755 --> 00:28:39,134
And you feel that mainly
are you surviving in your life?
437
00:28:41,511 --> 00:28:44,472
Now that you mention it, Brad…
438
00:28:47,976 --> 00:28:52,355
I showed persistence in some small things.
439
00:28:52,856 --> 00:28:56,025
I think so. That's how it looks to me.
440
00:28:56,109 --> 00:28:57,110
-Yes.
-Certainly.
441
00:28:57,193 --> 00:28:59,696
And not just with ALS.
442
00:28:59,779 --> 00:29:02,699
This shows
443
00:29:02,782 --> 00:29:08,455
that I have a distorted perception
about who i am.
444
00:29:09,414 --> 00:29:13,293
Therefore, what is the perverted one
and what is the true perception?
445
00:29:13,376 --> 00:29:17,088
-The perverted one about who are you?
-The twisted one?
446
00:29:17,172 --> 00:29:19,466
- Who were you?
-Ok.
447
00:29:19,549 --> 00:29:25,054
The distorted perception
it's that I'm not enough as I am.
448
00:29:28,183 --> 00:29:32,270
And how I don't deserve it
449
00:29:33,229 --> 00:29:38,485
to have a wonderful life.
450
00:29:40,278 --> 00:29:42,405
I'm a little different from everyone else.
451
00:29:43,740 --> 00:29:47,952
The experience of my life
she was very special at that time.
452
00:29:50,288 --> 00:29:54,626
And it made me feel
that I wasn't enough the way I was.
453
00:29:57,378 --> 00:29:59,756
And the reality is
454
00:30:01,299 --> 00:30:03,218
that I absolutely was
455
00:30:04,511 --> 00:30:06,137
more than enough.
456
00:30:08,473 --> 00:30:09,974
When did you realize that?
457
00:30:11,810 --> 00:30:13,937
Two minutes ago.
458
00:30:16,481 --> 00:30:19,818
I realized that, you know,
459
00:30:19,901 --> 00:30:23,279
this thing made me a little softer,
460
00:30:23,780 --> 00:30:25,532
a little more open,
461
00:30:26,407 --> 00:30:28,159
and a little more...
462
00:30:30,703 --> 00:30:36,876
available to experience
the truths about myself.
463
00:30:37,502 --> 00:30:39,712
My friends remind me of it too.
464
00:30:39,796 --> 00:30:43,299
All I have left
it is myself.
465
00:30:44,092 --> 00:30:46,761
It's a bit of a mean way
to realize
466
00:30:46,845 --> 00:30:49,597
that you were enough in the first place.
467
00:30:49,681 --> 00:30:56,229
When they take everything away from you
all you have left is this man.
468
00:30:56,312 --> 00:30:58,857
You still judge yourself sometimes
469
00:30:58,940 --> 00:31:00,608
or have you left it behind?
470
00:31:01,568 --> 00:31:02,527
I buried it.
471
00:31:04,904 --> 00:31:06,906
There was nothing left for me to judge.
472
00:31:09,742 --> 00:31:12,078
What would you say to the viewers?
473
00:31:12,161 --> 00:31:15,164
How they should live
or behave themselves?
474
00:31:15,915 --> 00:31:19,669
I don't think I can
to tell anyone how to live.
475
00:31:20,461 --> 00:31:23,965
I would make a subtle hint.
476
00:31:25,216 --> 00:31:28,177
At every opportunity,
477
00:31:28,261 --> 00:31:34,309
at the slightest opportunity
where you have to step on your ego...
478
00:31:36,603 --> 00:31:37,812
do it.
479
00:31:39,939 --> 00:31:41,983
Have you ever done this before?
480
00:31:42,066 --> 00:31:43,860
Yes, I was working on it.
481
00:31:43,943 --> 00:31:46,029
I'm under construction.
482
00:31:48,740 --> 00:31:50,867
-Aren't we all?
-Yes.
483
00:31:51,367 --> 00:31:55,413
Do you have any handy tricks?
484
00:31:55,496 --> 00:31:58,291
I always tell my son when you shave,
485
00:31:58,374 --> 00:32:02,003
make it so that if necessary
stop it, don't look ridiculous.
486
00:32:02,086 --> 00:32:04,631
-First down and then the sides.
-Correctly.
487
00:32:04,714 --> 00:32:07,008
- There could be an earthquake.
- Okay.
488
00:32:07,091 --> 00:32:10,595
They are random practical tricks
which every man has,
489
00:32:10,678 --> 00:32:13,681
and take them to the grave,
because it's stupid.
490
00:32:13,765 --> 00:32:15,099
Do you have any of these?
491
00:32:18,186 --> 00:32:22,065
Well, I think you always should
to make your bed
492
00:32:23,775 --> 00:32:29,113
I don't have to give you a reason,
but you must always layer it.
493
00:32:29,614 --> 00:32:30,865
Because, after all,
494
00:32:30,949 --> 00:32:35,536
if you want to hide from the world
and fall back into bed,
495
00:32:36,037 --> 00:32:37,747
you will be drawn to do it.
496
00:32:39,248 --> 00:32:40,333
Good.
497
00:32:40,833 --> 00:32:42,418
I have girls.
498
00:32:42,502 --> 00:32:44,796
I can't teach them to shave.
499
00:32:45,672 --> 00:32:49,634
No, but of course
you used to shave your legs for polo, right?
500
00:32:50,134 --> 00:32:52,762
No, he didn't need to. I have no hair.
501
00:32:52,845 --> 00:32:54,013
Truth;
502
00:32:55,848 --> 00:32:58,518
Polo players are impressive.
503
00:32:58,601 --> 00:33:03,147
This is real sport,
to be able to play while swimming.
504
00:33:03,231 --> 00:33:05,233
Yes. I was very good.
505
00:33:05,316 --> 00:33:06,651
-Truth;
-Yes.
506
00:33:07,318 --> 00:33:09,904
Good enough to say I was good.
507
00:33:10,822 --> 00:33:15,827
Based on what we've said, I don't think so
that you would say that if you weren't really good.
508
00:33:15,910 --> 00:33:18,538
You would hardly overcome your insecurity.
509
00:33:18,621 --> 00:33:20,999
-Yes.
-You need hard evidence.
510
00:33:21,082 --> 00:33:24,127
Hard evidence that I was very good.
511
00:33:24,210 --> 00:33:26,671
What else are you undeniably good at?
512
00:33:27,171 --> 00:33:28,881
Very good question.
513
00:33:30,925 --> 00:33:32,051
Wow.
514
00:33:33,511 --> 00:33:36,639
I was definitely good at tennis.
515
00:33:38,474 --> 00:33:43,604
I've had moments in my career
which I was undeniably good at.
516
00:33:43,688 --> 00:33:47,400
I wouldn't say
that I was undeniably amazing.
517
00:33:47,483 --> 00:33:49,277
I was undeniably good.
518
00:33:49,360 --> 00:33:50,445
When was that?
519
00:33:53,656 --> 00:33:57,201
You know, at the beginning of Grey's Anatomy.
520
00:33:57,702 --> 00:34:01,122
I feel that overall
521
00:34:01,205 --> 00:34:05,126
that experience was very rewarding.
522
00:34:05,918 --> 00:34:09,338
Even when it almost did
to sink my career.
523
00:34:10,506 --> 00:34:14,427
That's when your addiction
became uncontrollable.
524
00:34:14,510 --> 00:34:18,639
Yes. I'm not doing well
when I have a lot of free time.
525
00:34:18,723 --> 00:34:20,183
I need a schedule.
526
00:34:20,683 --> 00:34:24,353
And this series gave it to me.
527
00:34:27,440 --> 00:34:32,028
And when we stopped,
due to the screenwriters' strike,
528
00:34:32,528 --> 00:34:34,072
i sat for months
529
00:34:34,906 --> 00:34:41,746
and I rolled again
to drugs and alcohol.
530
00:34:41,829 --> 00:34:45,249
You undermined yourself
in that period.
531
00:34:45,833 --> 00:34:49,545
Yes. But I knew I shouldn't.
532
00:34:50,463 --> 00:34:53,132
Why then?
533
00:34:53,216 --> 00:34:56,469
I was sober for about nine years.
534
00:34:58,054 --> 00:34:59,430
I knew I shouldn't.
535
00:34:59,972 --> 00:35:04,143
And you don't think that to overcome
Does an addiction require persistence?
536
00:35:06,687 --> 00:35:08,481
I think it's mental fortitude.
537
00:35:09,607 --> 00:35:12,568
Sobriety is
an act you do every day.
538
00:35:12,652 --> 00:35:13,736
It applies.
539
00:35:13,820 --> 00:35:16,364
That's your definition of persistence.
540
00:35:16,864 --> 00:35:20,910
Correctly. Maybe there is
and a little persistence in there somewhere.
541
00:35:23,204 --> 00:35:26,958
We said how your family looked
who is eric dane.
542
00:35:27,041 --> 00:35:29,669
How do you see what Eric Dane was like?
543
00:35:33,172 --> 00:35:34,632
He was a kind hearted…
544
00:35:38,761 --> 00:35:40,054
kind,
545
00:35:40,805 --> 00:35:42,140
discreet…
546
00:35:44,809 --> 00:35:46,227
compassionate,
547
00:35:47,019 --> 00:35:48,479
sensitive…
548
00:35:53,234 --> 00:35:54,652
vulnerable,
549
00:35:55,236 --> 00:35:57,864
although he was afraid to be, sometimes…
550
00:35:59,699 --> 00:36:02,076
person who cares a lot.
551
00:36:02,743 --> 00:36:05,830
It's hard to be terribly sensitive.
552
00:36:05,913 --> 00:36:10,668
To feel so deeply and intensely,
as I feel all the time?
553
00:36:10,751 --> 00:36:13,462
-Yes.
-Yes. It's exhausting.
554
00:36:14,338 --> 00:36:16,757
And now everyone is gentler with you?
555
00:36:16,841 --> 00:36:19,010
They are probably gentler with you.
556
00:36:19,093 --> 00:36:21,012
I am more with them.
557
00:36:22,388 --> 00:36:23,514
Yes.
558
00:36:23,598 --> 00:36:24,891
Do you regret anything?
559
00:36:25,683 --> 00:36:28,561
For many. Yes.
560
00:36:28,644 --> 00:36:29,478
For what?
561
00:36:30,188 --> 00:36:32,773
I regret some of my decisions,
562
00:36:32,857 --> 00:36:37,653
for some of my choices
about drugs and alcohol.
563
00:36:37,737 --> 00:36:39,655
Have you forgiven yourself?
564
00:36:41,073 --> 00:36:42,241
look…
565
00:36:43,784 --> 00:36:45,661
There are some things.
566
00:36:45,745 --> 00:36:47,788
I mean, yes…
567
00:36:47,872 --> 00:36:52,126
No, I think I've left it behind
almost everything.
568
00:36:52,210 --> 00:36:53,419
How is that?
569
00:36:54,253 --> 00:36:55,796
It's very liberating.
570
00:36:56,297 --> 00:36:58,591
And what if you don't like me?
571
00:37:01,969 --> 00:37:05,264
I wish I felt this way when I was…
572
00:37:05,348 --> 00:37:09,185
you know, fit, strong and healthy.
573
00:37:10,019 --> 00:37:14,065
It's like they turned upside down.
The inside of you became the outside, and vice versa.
574
00:37:14,148 --> 00:37:14,982
Yes.
575
00:37:17,777 --> 00:37:19,153
I don't mind that.
576
00:37:19,654 --> 00:37:21,364
But, at the same time,
577
00:37:21,447 --> 00:37:25,701
I won't be
next to my children for a long time...
578
00:37:25,785 --> 00:37:32,541
I probably won't be there to escort
my daughters at their wedding
579
00:37:32,625 --> 00:37:35,920
and have grandchildren and…
580
00:37:37,421 --> 00:37:41,342
This is hard to handle.
581
00:37:44,011 --> 00:37:47,765
Did you ever get to the point of saying
"I think I'm done?"
582
00:37:48,432 --> 00:37:49,642
Yes.
583
00:37:51,185 --> 00:37:56,190
Yes, there are certain situations
584
00:37:56,274 --> 00:37:58,567
that I don't want to face them.
585
00:37:58,651 --> 00:38:01,070
I might feel different then,
586
00:38:01,153 --> 00:38:05,116
but when they see this interview,
587
00:38:05,199 --> 00:38:08,077
they will know if I followed it.
588
00:38:08,160 --> 00:38:09,954
I will tell you the following.
589
00:38:10,037 --> 00:38:14,917
If I can't communicate anymore
with my daughters
590
00:38:15,459 --> 00:38:16,961
and i can't move
591
00:38:18,296 --> 00:38:19,630
i don't want to be here
592
00:38:23,843 --> 00:38:26,304
You worked hard to raise money
593
00:38:26,387 --> 00:38:31,267
and convince politicians
to work actively
594
00:38:31,350 --> 00:38:33,894
for government funding of ALS.
595
00:38:33,978 --> 00:38:36,397
And I know that recently
596
00:38:36,480 --> 00:38:40,151
many cuts are made
in financing such things.
597
00:38:40,651 --> 00:38:45,281
-Can everyone do more?
- Yeah, it's kind of funny.
598
00:38:47,241 --> 00:38:49,869
Apparently, from what I understand,
599
00:38:51,537 --> 00:38:54,623
research needs money.
600
00:38:55,124 --> 00:38:57,668
And it's just a matter of money.
601
00:38:58,502 --> 00:39:01,255
With unlimited funds and research,
602
00:39:01,339 --> 00:39:04,258
we would quickly find a solution.
603
00:39:04,925 --> 00:39:09,347
There are only 31,000 people
with ALS in this country.
604
00:39:10,765 --> 00:39:16,354
And there are 340 million people
in the United States of America.
605
00:39:16,437 --> 00:39:18,564
I think it's difficult
606
00:39:20,274 --> 00:39:23,652
to understand
what is the meaning of the life of a single man.
607
00:39:26,197 --> 00:39:31,035
And how important it can be
and how many people it affects.
608
00:39:31,118 --> 00:39:37,541
And when you're an executive
who looks at the numbers…
609
00:39:39,585 --> 00:39:42,630
I still can't believe this is happening to me.
610
00:39:43,756 --> 00:39:47,051
It's weird, you know?
611
00:39:48,010 --> 00:39:52,765
I did not expect that this
it would be the end of me.
612
00:39:52,848 --> 00:39:57,103
It was never part of the story
that I had created for myself.
613
00:39:58,604 --> 00:39:59,772
Do you understand?
614
00:40:01,690 --> 00:40:08,406
I didn't think anything would happen to me
as crippling and deadly as ALS.
615
00:40:08,489 --> 00:40:12,868
I mean, why would I get something like this?
616
00:40:13,661 --> 00:40:14,703
Do you understand?
617
00:40:16,914 --> 00:40:18,040
I am healthy.
618
00:40:19,208 --> 00:40:23,129
But I don't feel sorry for myself.
619
00:40:23,212 --> 00:40:28,342
I feel sorry for my children,
and Rebecca and my friends.
620
00:40:29,093 --> 00:40:32,430
But I never felt sorry for myself.
621
00:40:33,347 --> 00:40:35,808
- It's admirable.
- I don't know what it is.
622
00:40:35,891 --> 00:40:37,226
As I said,
623
00:40:37,309 --> 00:40:42,106
there is no logical explanation
624
00:40:43,315 --> 00:40:44,817
where I...
625
00:40:47,153 --> 00:40:50,239
I deal with it the way I deal with it.
626
00:40:50,990 --> 00:40:54,910
It's like something was taken from you.
627
00:40:55,411 --> 00:40:59,999
They took something from you when you were seven,
with what happened with your dad.
628
00:41:00,082 --> 00:41:04,545
And this, in a way,
allowed you to take it back.
629
00:41:05,045 --> 00:41:06,464
Rather.
630
00:41:06,547 --> 00:41:09,967
Yes.
631
00:41:12,470 --> 00:41:14,346
That was really good, Brad.
632
00:41:18,142 --> 00:41:21,395
Is there something you would like to say before…
633
00:41:23,022 --> 00:41:25,816
I never killed anyone, Brad.
634
00:41:25,900 --> 00:41:27,985
I believe you.
635
00:41:28,569 --> 00:41:31,197
I don't believe you would ever hurt anyone.
636
00:41:31,280 --> 00:41:32,781
Not really.
637
00:41:32,865 --> 00:41:36,076
I've punched some people,
but they deserved it.
638
00:41:36,160 --> 00:41:39,163
So. Not once
you have to throw punches.
639
00:41:39,246 --> 00:41:40,164
It applies.
640
00:41:40,664 --> 00:41:42,708
Why did you hit them?
641
00:41:43,375 --> 00:41:45,252
One attacked me.
642
00:41:45,836 --> 00:41:47,046
And I threw it at him.
643
00:41:47,129 --> 00:41:48,422
Did you get him?
644
00:41:48,506 --> 00:41:49,590
Oh, yes.
645
00:41:50,090 --> 00:41:51,050
Yes.
646
00:41:52,176 --> 00:41:55,137
I don't have anything crazy to tell you.
647
00:41:56,555 --> 00:41:58,224
I wish I had.
648
00:41:59,642 --> 00:42:01,727
I have had very nice times.
649
00:42:03,312 --> 00:42:07,733
Some unhealthy,
some very unhealthy.
650
00:42:08,234 --> 00:42:10,027
But you remember them all with love.
651
00:42:11,362 --> 00:42:14,448
Most of them.
652
00:42:15,783 --> 00:42:18,911
Okay, we've come to the end of the discussion.
653
00:42:19,495 --> 00:42:22,414
It affected me a lot personally.
654
00:42:23,374 --> 00:42:27,628
You showed me what perseverance means,
655
00:42:28,379 --> 00:42:30,172
what it means to be present.
656
00:42:30,256 --> 00:42:32,716
Thank you for your honesty.
657
00:42:32,800 --> 00:42:37,054
Thank you for giving me the opportunity
let's have this conversation.
658
00:42:39,056 --> 00:42:41,559
She must be the most…
659
00:42:43,852 --> 00:42:48,566
revealing and in-depth discussion
that I have done with anyone.
660
00:42:48,649 --> 00:42:49,817
I am very glad.
661
00:42:50,442 --> 00:42:53,487
You asked the right questions.
662
00:42:54,822 --> 00:42:56,198
You are…
663
00:42:57,366 --> 00:43:00,661
excellent tennis partner
for something like that.
664
00:43:00,744 --> 00:43:02,496
Thanks for saying that.
665
00:43:03,664 --> 00:43:05,541
I will now leave the room.
666
00:43:06,250 --> 00:43:10,129
You have a chance
to say goodbye in your own words.
667
00:43:10,212 --> 00:43:12,923
You will look at that camera.
668
00:43:13,007 --> 00:43:18,512
And I hope Georgia and Billy
to know their daddy when they see it.
669
00:43:18,596 --> 00:43:20,806
Well, thank you, Eric.
670
00:43:21,890 --> 00:43:23,183
Thank you, Brad.
671
00:43:31,900 --> 00:43:35,654
billy and georgia,
these words are for you.
672
00:43:36,614 --> 00:43:37,698
I tried.
673
00:43:39,366 --> 00:43:42,036
Sometimes I stumbled, but I tried.
674
00:43:43,662 --> 00:43:46,248
All in all, we had a great time, right?
675
00:43:47,625 --> 00:43:50,502
I remember all the times
where we went to the beach
676
00:43:51,253 --> 00:43:55,591
The two of you, me and mom
in Malibu, in Santa Monica…
677
00:44:02,056 --> 00:44:05,392
In Santa Monica, Hawaii, Mexico.
678
00:44:06,143 --> 00:44:08,979
Now you play with the hours at sea,
679
00:44:09,063 --> 00:44:10,898
my water babies.
680
00:44:12,274 --> 00:44:15,110
those days,
literally, it was heaven.
681
00:44:17,821 --> 00:44:21,659
I want to tell you four things
what I learned from this disease,
682
00:44:21,742 --> 00:44:25,454
and I hope you don't just listen to me.
I hope you pay attention.
683
00:44:27,748 --> 00:44:30,417
First, live now,
684
00:44:31,877 --> 00:44:34,463
at this moment, in the present.
685
00:44:35,422 --> 00:44:38,217
It's hard, but I learned to do it.
686
00:44:39,259 --> 00:44:44,932
For years I was lost in my thoughts
for endless hours,
687
00:44:45,432 --> 00:44:49,561
full of worry, self-pity,
shame and doubt.
688
00:44:50,354 --> 00:44:52,314
I was rethinking decisions,
689
00:44:52,398 --> 00:44:53,857
I doubt it for me.
690
00:44:53,941 --> 00:44:57,486
"I had to do this,
I shouldn't have done that."
691
00:44:58,112 --> 00:44:59,238
Not anymore.
692
00:45:00,239 --> 00:45:04,159
For survival reasons
I am forced to live in the present.
693
00:45:06,161 --> 00:45:08,414
But I don't want to be anywhere else either.
694
00:45:08,914 --> 00:45:11,375
The past contains regrets.
695
00:45:11,875 --> 00:45:14,128
The future remains unknown.
696
00:45:14,628 --> 00:45:16,714
So, you have to live in the now.
697
00:45:17,715 --> 00:45:20,300
The present is all you have.
698
00:45:20,384 --> 00:45:23,470
Appreciate it.
Enjoy every moment.
699
00:45:23,971 --> 00:45:26,265
Second, fall in love.
700
00:45:27,975 --> 00:45:29,852
Not necessarily with a person,
701
00:45:29,935 --> 00:45:32,938
although I recommend that too.
702
00:45:33,021 --> 00:45:37,943
But fall in love with something.
Find your passion, your joy.
703
00:45:38,694 --> 00:45:41,947
Find what works for you
to want to get up in the morning.
704
00:45:43,282 --> 00:45:45,659
What motivates you to get through the day.
705
00:45:46,702 --> 00:45:49,913
I fell in love for the first time
when i was your age
706
00:45:49,997 --> 00:45:51,540
I fell in love with acting.
707
00:45:52,040 --> 00:45:56,128
This love helped me
in my darkest moments,
708
00:45:56,712 --> 00:45:58,505
on my darkest days,
709
00:45:59,006 --> 00:46:01,091
in my darkest year.
710
00:46:02,176 --> 00:46:05,471
I still love my job.
I'm still looking forward to doing it.
711
00:46:05,554 --> 00:46:09,224
I want to be in front of a camera
and play my part.
712
00:46:10,392 --> 00:46:13,896
My job doesn't define me,
but it fascinates me.
713
00:46:14,563 --> 00:46:15,814
Find something.
714
00:46:17,316 --> 00:46:19,443
Find something that fascinates you.
715
00:46:20,235 --> 00:46:21,737
Find your way.
716
00:46:21,820 --> 00:46:23,655
Your purpose.
717
00:46:23,739 --> 00:46:25,032
Your dream.
718
00:46:25,616 --> 00:46:26,992
And chase it.
719
00:46:27,493 --> 00:46:29,495
Really chase it.
720
00:46:30,537 --> 00:46:34,792
Third, choose
carefully your friends.
721
00:46:35,834 --> 00:46:39,213
Find your people
and let them find you,
722
00:46:39,296 --> 00:46:41,632
and then give yourself to them.
723
00:46:42,883 --> 00:46:45,219
The best will repay you.
724
00:46:45,719 --> 00:46:47,137
Without being judged.
725
00:46:47,221 --> 00:46:48,889
Without conditions.
726
00:46:48,972 --> 00:46:50,974
No questions asked.
727
00:46:51,475 --> 00:46:55,229
I am grateful
for my family and friends.
728
00:46:55,729 --> 00:46:57,940
All of them supported me.
729
00:46:58,774 --> 00:47:01,860
I can't do
nor the little things I did.
730
00:47:02,402 --> 00:47:06,990
I can't drive in the city,
to go to the gym, for coffee, for a walk.
731
00:47:07,950 --> 00:47:10,452
I learned to accept the alternatives.
732
00:47:10,536 --> 00:47:16,416
My friends come to me. we eat together
we see a match, we listen to music.
733
00:47:17,125 --> 00:47:19,878
They don't do anything special.
It's just there.
734
00:47:20,379 --> 00:47:21,755
This is important.
735
00:47:21,839 --> 00:47:23,382
Be there.
736
00:47:24,967 --> 00:47:28,262
And love your friends
with all your heart.
737
00:47:30,013 --> 00:47:31,431
Stay away from them.
738
00:47:31,932 --> 00:47:34,852
They will entertain you, guide you,
739
00:47:35,352 --> 00:47:39,022
they will help you, they will support you,
and some will save you.
740
00:47:41,400 --> 00:47:42,609
Finally,
741
00:47:43,360 --> 00:47:48,282
fight with all your being
and with dignity.
742
00:47:49,241 --> 00:47:51,368
When you face challenges,
743
00:47:51,869 --> 00:47:54,830
health or otherwise, fight.
744
00:47:55,956 --> 00:47:57,457
Never give up.
745
00:47:57,541 --> 00:47:59,918
Fight till your last breath.
746
00:48:02,004 --> 00:48:05,048
This disease
slowly defeats my body,
747
00:48:05,132 --> 00:48:07,926
but it will never defeat my spirit.
748
00:48:10,596 --> 00:48:13,098
You are two different people.
749
00:48:14,141 --> 00:48:17,603
But you both have strength and fortitude.
750
00:48:18,103 --> 00:48:20,898
You took the strength from me.
751
00:48:21,398 --> 00:48:23,442
This is my superpower.
752
00:48:23,942 --> 00:48:27,988
you bring me down
and I immediately get up and continue.
753
00:48:28,488 --> 00:48:31,700
I get up again and again and again.
754
00:48:32,200 --> 00:48:34,244
Mark says I'm like a cat.
755
00:48:34,745 --> 00:48:40,667
Except the cat has nine lives
I'm on the 15th too, comfortably.
756
00:48:41,376 --> 00:48:46,381
When something unexpected happens to you,
and it will find you, because that's life,
757
00:48:46,465 --> 00:48:50,260
fight and face it
with honesty, integrity and grace,
758
00:48:50,344 --> 00:48:53,972
even if you feel it
or seems insurmountable.
759
00:48:54,598 --> 00:48:58,018
I hope I showed you
that you can face anything.
760
00:48:58,101 --> 00:49:00,354
Face your end.
761
00:49:00,437 --> 00:49:03,690
Face hell
with dignity.
762
00:49:04,524 --> 00:49:08,403
Fight on girls
and keep your head up.
763
00:49:09,321 --> 00:49:11,114
billy and georgia,
764
00:49:11,615 --> 00:49:13,116
you are my heart
765
00:49:13,825 --> 00:49:15,619
You are everything to me.
766
00:49:16,119 --> 00:49:17,329
Good night.
767
00:49:17,412 --> 00:49:18,455
i love you
768
00:49:19,706 --> 00:49:21,917
These are my last words.
769
00:49:37,683 --> 00:49:44,648
{\an8}ERIK DANE
1972-2026
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Subtitling: Peggy Barouni
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